Inspired by the aesthetic of the Pictorialist movement of the early 20th Century, "I Am Not Myself Today" turns the spotlight on modern anxieties, placing them in a setting the evokes the desire to return to an earlier, less troubled time.

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While COVID lockdown presented an opportunity to slow down, to focus on immediate surroundings and to connect with nature, it came with a counter balance. Global and national events, way out of my control, threatened to impact every aspect of my well-being.

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The year 2020 was characterized by a seemingly endless fight against an invisible enemy, by isolation from my loved ones, by the inability to comprehend the mindset of others and by disturbing media scenes of death, hate, violence and division.

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The images in this series portray those days when, surrounded by apparent calm and light, my inner worries dominated. Days when I felt helpless and isolated, when my darkest fears rose to the surface, resulting in paralyzing inactivity and the desire to hide away and block the outside world. These are the days when I am not myself.

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This series was my first foray into self-portraiture. something I have previously resisted. Confronting my discomfort in front of the camera, and realizing that it mirrors my inability to confront deeper fears, proved to be an essential, therapeutic process.